Blessed are they that mourn…

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What’s up everyone, been a while since I’ve blogged. I’ve been traveling a lot and while I certainly haven’t stopped thinking, between work and traveling I haven’t really had the time (or energy) to blog. In the past couple months, I’ve had some great highs and some devastating lows. Some days feel like Psalm 23, while others feel like Psalm 88.

Today is a special day though, enough to kickstart my blogging again. Two years ago today, God gave me a faith-filled, gorgeous, brilliant woman as my wife. Danielle. I was the literally happiest guy in the world and at that time 2 years ago, I never could have imagined in a million years that I’d be where I am today. Instead of a vacation or a celebratory dinner to celebrate our anniversary, I’m on my way to the cemetery to mourn my wife’s passing.

But today I’m blessed in my mourning. No, this isn’t some denial of the pain associated with grief, because truth be told today is one of the worst and most painful moments I’ve ever lived through. Losing Danielle is a pain so deep and enduring, I would have preferred having my arms ripped off. Nevertheless, faith and pain can and do co-exist very nicely.

Today also is not a proclamation of what God will do. I am blessed today, in my pain, in my grief, in my solitude, in my mourning.

Needless to say, I’m not “blessed” in the traditional understanding of the word blessed, and over these last 4 months I’ve re-examined what it means to be “blessed”. But in the greatest sermon ever preached, by the greatest one to ever walk the earth, Jesus unpacks and reveals who and why we’re blessed.

3 “Blessed are the poor in spirit,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
4 Blessed are those who mourn,
for they will be comforted.

5 Blessed are the meek,
for they will inherit the earth.
6 Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
for they will be filled.
7 Blessed are the merciful,
for they will be shown mercy.
8 Blessed are the pure in heart,
for they will see God.
9 Blessed are the peacemakers,
for they will be called children of God.
10 Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

It’s interesting that Jesus never mentions material possessions or those that receive good outcomes as blessed; conversely, He names the poor in spirit, those mourning, the meek, those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, the merciful, pure in heart, peacemakers and the persecuted. Not exactly what we traditionally consider blessed in America, but these are the people with whom God dwells.

Notably, “blessed” in its most basic form, as used in the scripture means “approved by God”. God is not impressed by the greatest preacher or the most amazing outward act; rather, He approves of the one that is so convinced of his/her own emptiness that (s)he runs to God in dependence, laments over their sin in search of God’s grace. God approves of the humble and hungry servant that mercifully deals with people in the knowledge that they themselves have been given so much grace, and deals with everyone graciously.

I’m blessed today because I’m exactly where my sovereign God wants me to be. He absolutely could have stopped Danielle from getting cancer and dying, but He didn’t. He absolutely could have prevented the tears I’ve cried, but He didn’t. What happened in my life came by the permission of God and what God permitted He did so for His plan. And His plan for our lives comes with His provision, to provide for us every step of the way.

But despite the painful situation that He has allowed, He’s allowed it for my good and for His glory. In my bottoming out in this season of mourning I’ve realized that God, the rock beneath me is unshakable, unmovable and dependable.

I’ve realized that I’m carried in everlasting arms, He’ll never let me go.

As Danielle rejoices in heaven, through my tears I can count it all joy and rest assured that He’ll continue in His comfort and finish the work He’s started in me.

God is faithful, He’s everything He’s promised.

Today, because He’s with me, I’m blessed.

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21 Responses to “Blessed are they that mourn…”

  1. Jordan,
    thanks for this blessing. I look forward to meeting your wife in the future, and rejoicing with both of you in God’s phenomenal mercy and his unending love. I look forward to seeing you when you come down to South Texas next time. You blessing people through your brokenness.

  2. GRice says:

    Thank you, Jordan, for these powerful and reassuring words…. Just what this grieving Mom needed to read today.

  3. Alfie says:

    Yes, Jordon you are blessed and I am happy you are allowing God to use you. Through your words many will come to understand the promises of God.

  4. Spencer says:

    You are amazing. I’m your older cuz, but I’m following you as a model in spiritual strength. Your strength is continuing to spill over to your family, friends, and myself who love and support you – and ultimately further strengthening all of us. You’re the model of a true man’s man – ‘strong’! (yes, even with those cool dark shades you wore during our vacation, you’re the man!!)
    Love you cuz!

  5. Kevin says:

    You are an awesome example of strength bro. Good word. We truly get a revelation of God’s Word when we experience it. Thanks for sharing, thank you for your perspective. You are truly blessed.

  6. Chanda Gage says:

    This was so POWERFUL!! I can feel the Holy Spirit through your testimony!! God is awesome! And so are you! I will share your story with many of my patients at work. You are blessed!

    Chana 🙂

  7. Dad says:

    I am more blessed than anyone that reads your blogs because you & Danielle are my son & daughter. You two are inspiration to all young people and your parents. Your journey begins now. Dad

  8. Alyssa says:

    God is honored. I look forward to watching you and your wife receive your rewards in heaven.

  9. Paul says:

    “O Joy that seekest me through pain,
    I cannot close my heart to thee;
    I trace the rainbow thru the rain,
    and feel the promise is not vain,
    that morn shall tearless be.”
    Lyrics: George Matheson, 1842-1906

    Blessed be the God of all comfort who comforts us in our afflictions so that we in turn can comfort those who are afflicted.

    Though I’ve not experienced a loss of this depth, I am greatly comforted by your steadfast walk. Thank you and may the Lord Jesus continue to be your comfort.

  10. megan snow says:

    Thankyou so very much for sharing your story. On May 17, 2011 our first born child, our son Titus, went to heaven the day he was born. Thankyou for encouraging my soul in Christ today. May God bless you.

  11. Bryan says:

    Thanks for your post. all I can say is that your post puts life into perspective.
    I am about to start my junior year of high school. How I stumbled upon this is beyond me.
    Truly, it was Him. Thank you.

  12. Lindsey says:

    Thank you so much for this post. I lost my dad to suicide 2 months ago and have struggled with the idea of pain and faith–I have tried so hard to ignore the pain so that my faith would be what others saw, but what you said about pain and faith really going hand in hand is a huge comfort to me and helps me to see the freedom I have in Christ to mourn and feel that pain here on earth, all the while trusting in our sovereign and good Father. Thank you again.

  13. Kim says:

    Stumbled upon your blog today…very encouraged by your honesty and your love for Christ. I loved what you last said…because He’s with me I’m blessed. That statement shall certainly become words etched into my mind and heart and spoken from my mouth in the midst of life’s trials. Thanks for the encouragement! “I will sing to the Lord because He has dealt bountifully with me!” Psalm 13:6

  14. AM says:

    Dear Sir, I am thankful that GOD would have you document your journey with HIM and your dealing with grief as it has been a real eye opener and blessing to me. Sometime ago I came across these links below. They really did and still do bless me and I pray GOD uses it to comfort and bless you.

  15. wanda says:

    Beautiful words. Precious wife. Amazing heart.
    God bless you–Jordan.

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