What’s up everyone, I’ve been on a 5 week hiatus from blogging. For those of you that didn’t know, my wife passed away on April 23rd, 2 days after the last blog entry. First off, thank you to everyone for your prayers and kind words on facebook, twitter and in person.
Needless to say, I needed to take a break from everything and in these last number of weeks I’ve been able to test God’s promises and honestly I’m blown away by the results.
Sunday after church I saw a once in a lifetime thing. A friend and I were hanging out in Brooklyn, and on my way home we saw a guy trying to jump off the Brooklyn Bridge. For whatever reason, as much as I wanted to turn away, I just couldn’t. As the police talked to the guy on the ledge I watched hoping that this would have a good ending. And it did. As you can see in the picture, the cops grabbed him, and against his will, pulled him to safety. That dude couldn’t get away even if he wanted to. That got me thinking A LOT in how God relates to us. In Philippians 3:12 Paul says one of the most amazing things in the bible, something I’ve never really understood until now. It reads: “I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me.”
Plainly stated, Paul was reaching out to a God that already had him firmly in His grip. This Christian walk is full of uncertainty on our side, but there is no question about one thing. If you are one of God’s children, He has you, firmly in His grip of grace, and nothing will be able to snatch you out. Not money problems, the death of a loved one, an adulterous spouse, sickness, the loss of your job or a million other things that can shake us to our cores.
I don’t believe at all that Danielle died to teach me a series of lessons, but, over this last year I’ve learned a great deal nonetheless. If I never learn anything else in life, I’ve discovered in these last weeks, that even when we can’t stand on our own, God’s hand is firmly on us, holding us up, and I’m assured that He’s never left, and He never will. I’ve never physically felt like the guy in the pic, but spiritually, I know what it feels like to have one sock on dangling over a bridge. But thanks be to God that I’m trapped in the grip of His grace. And despite how painful my position is right now, I don’t know if there’s a better place in this world to be.
Romans 8:38 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Am I a strong guy? No where near it, not now at least, but “when I am weak, then I am strong” and that’s because God’s got me, right in the grip of His grace.