fight, finish, keep the faith…

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As most of my readers know, my wife passed away on April 23, 2011 due to cancer. Today, on what would have been her 28th birthday, I’ve been reflecting a lot about her life, who she was as a person, and how she taught me so much in the time we shared. From the moment I met Danielle, I knew she was special. In our first phone conversation, I literally told myself that I was going to marry her. To say I enjoyed the time we spent together would be an understatement. I would have preferred nothing else in life than to spend the next 70 years married to her, and to die together holding hands. But God’s ways are not my ways, and what I wanted to happen, didn’t happen.

I spent our first wedding anniversary caring for her as she battled the side effects of chemotherapy and the second wedding anniversary at the cemetery. And as I saw first-hand in the months leading up to her passing, I can honestly say that she is literally the most faith-filled, amazing person that I’ve ever met in person.

We use hyperbole so much these days that statements like that don’t have their intended meaning, but it’s true. The picture above is a quote from her journal, one of many times that she approached her death with the faith of a giant. She knew she was dying, and that she would not do many things on earth that she wanted to do, and while that saddened her, she knew that in all things, even her death, God was still good, and she trusted Him.

I can’t tell you how much I’ve benefited from the example she has set as a christian facing adversity. In my grief journey and in my spiritual pursuits I can’t escape the witness of her life lived through suffering. To trust God when literally EVERYTHING is going wrong in your own body, and to praise God even when you know that He’s allowing you to suffer. That’s mind boggling, but she didn’t do that as a result of inner courage or will power. God graced her to persevere, and persevere she did.

So, for me, I’ve lived by this mantra since the day Dani died, and I pray when I am on my death bed I can say of my own life that I fought the good fight of faith, I’ve finished my work, and I’ve kept the faith.

To any of my readers that may be experiencing difficulty, by the grace of God, who will never forsake us, may we “fight, finish and keep the faith.”

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2 Responses to “fight, finish, keep the faith…”

  1. Kevin says:

    Thanks for continuing to share your heart during this journey. This is incredibly encouraging. I admire you’re faith so much bro.
    Fight, finish, keep the faith.

  2. GRice says:

    Jordan, thank you for posting this on Dani’s birthday; her words were a gift to all of us. I am so proud of both of you!

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